女の寂しさ。。。

I don't know should use 日本語or English to write this blog..

Now, I understand what Sis Juliah told me last time when we met.
At my age now..エロのことばかり考えるかもしれないし。。。

I went to a guy friend house last night to return DVD and had dinner together.
He is not tall built but at least he used to be スポーツ系。私の好みだよ。。
2persons under one roof..想像だけどで、something might had happened.
彼はちゃんと彼女がいるから。。。
Before reaching his place, I have to control and keep myself awake.
もしなんかあったら、友達もなれないかもしれないし。。。
ちょっと曖昧situationだった！
Lastly, I still can control myself..
Or else I might RAPE him..Haha

もう～彼氏がほしい理由は何かな？
愛されたいか、セックスだけしたいか。。。
最近、また迷って。。
しばらく、Don't anyhow meet guys at such situation better la..